Tuesday, August 20, 2013

A Letter to Her Bio Dad:


Dear Dad,

        It’s me…. Your daughter. I am not sure if you think of me or not. However, I still remember you. I remember your shouts… your cursing. I remember you hurting me… stealing my virginity like a robber steals money. I think of the things you had said to me. The curses you planted in my young soul haunted me. I remember lots of things about you…

What breaks my heart most… is that when you weren’t drunk or high; you were the best father. You would sing, hug me and play… We would ride around in your black car with the top down while the radio blared in our ears. I cherish those memories.

You have brought much pain and tears. I have forgiven you for what had happened. I look at the children around me and I wonder… How could anyone curse a young one? Or rob them of their innocence?

Dad, I don’t’ want to belittle you… I wish you were here. I wish you could see your little girl grow up. I wish you could see… I love you, dad. I love you with everything I have, I dream one day I will see you again, I will hug you and tell you, “Dad, I love you. I forgive you… and thank you.”

I have used my past to help me. The pain has made me stronger, the fear has made me braver, I have torn down the walls that kept me from loving. God has taught me to love. I don’t consider you as a enemy… nor a father… just a long lost friend.

I used to hate you… but now I love you…

I want to thank you… for me. You helped create me. I can share my past… my pain… my truimphs… and my amazing Saviour.

My greatest wish… Is that one day I will walk with you down a golden street… In Heaven.

I once was blind, but now I see…

That though you aren’t here… you will always be a part of me.

I have learned to let go…

My love is what I have to show.

I will see you again…

Then we will begin-

Our walk on those golden streets…

So rise from your sleep…

For you were lost…

But now are found…

Amazing Love….

 

~Love~

Marie J.

~Your Daughter~

3 comments:

Kim Kleopfer said...

I am speechless....this is truly amazing! Wow!

DeEtta @ Choosing Joy said...

Beautiful. That girl of yours is a picture of Amazing Grace.

I enjoyed catching up on the past couple of months. Love to see how your 17 has settled in to family life...didn't realize you'd brought a 10 or is it 11 yo into your home recently as well. Praying for your family as you continue to walk the path He has placed you on.

How many children do you have now? How many still at home?

The McClures said...

I am bawling right now! Amazing how much work God(much through you and Doug) have done in those kids! God is great!