Thursday, August 26, 2010

Why I haven't Blogged...........

So how do you explain or share when God does something supernatural in your world? How do you sound believable in writing when it is hard to wrap your brain around it as you live it? This has been my question and why I haven’t blogged in a while. I “Blame it on God!”

Sunday a week and ½ ago is when this amazing journey began. MN had pushed me to the limit with the rebellious spirit and lies. After church I/we as a family confronted her about stuff. It wasn’t pretty. In time all but mom went on about life. Mom wouldn’t let go. I finally pushed her over the top. After the explosion then she was in a place to talk.

As I ask her if we could pray she agreed. She is in my arms at this time. So as held her I started praying. I can’t tell you everything I prayed as I prayed what God put on my heart. One thing I do remember praying was I led her again through the salvation prayer. I ask her if she believed Jesus was her Lord and Savor? If she believed He died and rose again so she would be saved? She affirmed she did. My understanding of the word saved is much more than saved. In the Greek, the word used is Sozo, which means: SAVE, make whole, heal. So when I ask her if Jesus saved her I meant not just saved, but made whole, healed and set her free of her past.

As I prayed I noticed her leg starting to shake. Now understand this is all new territory to me. I have read about being slain in the spirit etc but never experienced it. I knew God was doing something in her though. I also ask that God do a supernatural job on her so she would know that she knew He was real and she could see it. So when the leg started shaking I felt that was what was going on.

After we prayed she looked at me and said, “My leg is shaking.” I agreed.

I told her I bet I could get the other one to shake too. She wanted to know how. So I prayed some more for more of an infilling of the Holy Spirit. Sure enough now both legs are shaking. I ask her if she is afraid. She isn’t. By now she is laughing about her legs jiggling. So I keep praying. Then her arms start doing it too. Now she is really laughing. I move off the couch so she can stretch out and jiggle. I keep asking her if she is afraid. She isn’t! She is laughing and jiggling and while I am just laughing with her. She keeps saying “I can’t make them stop!” I totally agree with her and we laugh some more. After she does this for a while with lots of talking God decides He doesn’t have her attention enough. So now she is struck mute. She is now laughing and mouthing stuff but NO sound comes out of her mouth. Again I ask her if she is afraid. She still has no fear. We continue to laugh and she mouths things like, “Thanks mom!” Being the loving mom I am I get the Bible out and read to her in Luke where Zacharias was struck mute for over 9 months for unbelief. She really didn’t see the humor of it. Finally about midnight we go to bed. She is still mute and still jiggling.

Monday morning she gets up still mute and still jiggling, yet she said she slept well. She still has no fear. I have no fear I just feel God is doing a work in her. Besides it is really nice not hearing her argue. I dream of a few days of quiet as God works. This isn’t to be but that is OK too.

After chores she and T and I are sitting on the porch discussion what is happening, well she is listening while since she is still silent. As I talk I see T getting teary eyed and I feel God is doing something in her. I gather her in my arms and cuddle her. MN is sitting in the swing. As I start to pray for T, MN starts to sing. Only it isn’t in English! Again never heard it before but I knew it was a prayer language. It was beautiful! You have to also understand MN does NOT sing! That draws attention to her and she likes to fly under the radar. She came over and we prayed and she sang in this beautiful language.

When we were finished praying MN continued to speak her prayer language. At first I really thought she was playing, then I began to realize she didn’t even understand she wasn’t speaking English. I was amazed! I suggested she write down what she was feeling and communicate with me that way. Only one slight problem when she wrote it wasn’t in English either! It wasn’t even a type of script LIKE we use. I continued to ask her if she was afraid. She still wasn’t. I was just in shock!

By Tuesday I was researching different scripts and asking her if she could read them. Finally I hit on one that lit her eyes up. She went to nodding yes!!! It was Aramaic, which was the language that Jesus spoke, though she didn’t know that. Yes, that sit me on my ear! I wanted to “confirm” what she was saying. Yes, I am a skeptic. I then remembered The Passion of the Christ was done totally in Aramaic. I checked out YouTube and sure enough it was on there.

I know MN had never watched it. I started the movie. I then opened a new page in front of that page. The sound was low so I had to adjust the sound to get it where she could hear it. I am following along in my head as to what is happening. Once I got the sound adjusted her face lit up. I ask if she understood. She nodded YES!!!!!

I told her to show me what was happening. So she did! She touched each palm with a finger off her other hand. This in sign language is Christ. Then she expressed praying, then pointed to heaven, then Christ crying and sweating. She showed me cup and drink, then shook her head and moved “cup” hand away shaking her head. Anyone recognize this? I did! Jesus in the Garden! This was the scene taking place in the movie. She then “ask” (motioned) to be allowed to watch it. Since she couldn’t do school I allowed her to watch it. T and D11 were finished with school so they also were allowed to watch it.

I really had a peace about what was going on in my spirit, while my natural was going nuts! I called a couple of trusted friends and shared and had them talk to her. None of them felt a check in their spirit either. So we went with it. DH started out feeling it was a game also. He even came to understand it was real as the fruit started to show up.

God’s Word says we are to judge by the fruit. The fruit was amazing! First she started keeping her hair out of her eyes. This is a HUGE issue with her. Not only that but grand daughter came out and her hair was in her eyes. MN would go brush her hair and pull it back. She did this a zillion times a day for 2 days! I sat back and watched in amazement. Another “fruit” was the way she was treating the other kids. She was really bad about doing mean little things and when caught saying, “I was just joking.” This almost totally stopped. I ask her to clean the puppy cage and she did it!!!! The FIRST time I ask! This was amazing!

Then came the tough day, THERAPY! I have a wonderful Christian counselor, but still would she see this as God or would her training say otherwise. I REALLY didn’t want to go! I went by a friends and ask her to pray with us on the way. I had other friends praying. God is so good! I went in and explained what was going on. She sat with her mouth open and couldn’t wait to “talk” with her. Her take was “In 5 years this is the first time MN has been able to hold my gaze.” Like the rest of us at that point she couldn’t wait for MN to share in ENGLISH.

All week MN had been writing and drawing amazing pictures of what God was showing her. She would motion what the pictures were about. She also spoke a very distinct language. I started to learn different words. I learned “mom”, and different kids names. I spent the week researching and pulling up different things for her to “read” some she could pick out words. She could pick out words from Aramaic, Hebrew and Arabic. I found my iphone had a Arabic Bible. So I would do a search of a book or word. Then translated to Arabic and ask her who or what it was. She would get it right maybe 30% of the time. Some she hit right were Genesis, and Stephen. It was a wild week to say the least.

Sunday she started getting her words back. She told how much she was willing to give up to follow Jesus. One thing she said is “She knows she is forever changed.” “She knows she will lose friends but even if she lost every friend she ever had she would still choose this.” These things she shared in Church on Sunday. She said God did this to her because she didn’t believe He was really real. She now knows He is much bigger and more real than anything she ever thought.

MN has always had the ability to see into the spirit realm. During this time God showed her many things good and bad. Her pictures are amazing. She talks about how the spirits work. It is really amazing to listen to her as she looks you in the eye with clear eyes and talks about what she sees.

It hasn’t all been easy. As her voice came back so did temptation. While she is wonderfully changed in some ways the issues with school and chores came back. After battling several days a friend came out and shared his feelings as he has walked in this much more than we have.

Much of what she is struggling with is not wanting to do school. I was both shocked and surprised when this friend ask her if she thought that her not wanting to do school was something passed down from her bio’s. After a surprised look she told him neither finished high school. So it helped her bring into focus the reason for this battle. Today has been much better in that area.

I realize this is out of many people who read my blog’s comfort zone. Don’t feel bad it is WAY out of mine too! Or I should say was, as I just walk in amazement of the difference I see. She IS different and the difference is good. She has not yelled at her brothers and sister in over a week! She has kept her hair out of her eyes for over a week! She has a “new” hair style. It is very mature and pretty. She has worn it like this for a week now. D8 is really feeling lost as she was his fighting buddy. He hasn’t been able to provoke her. He has tried! Before it was a double edged sword as to which one was lying about what the other did or said, all ending in a yelling match. The whole family dynamics has changed as a result of her change. Our home is so much more at peace. I can’t even explain the peace and calm that has come into our home. Yes, we still have issues. I still have 2 that feed the anger and feed off each other, but with one major player not only removed but praying along with me for peace and calm they will be changing!

I do know that I have a couple of friends that have walked this walk these two weeks with us. I would love for them to share on here to as to what they see the change is. How they see God working. MN is working on a blog post and also sharing her drawings on her bog. I don’t know when she will get it finished but I hope by the weekend.

Please feel free to commit on what we have shared. We want it to be a testimony of what God can do. He isn’t a respecter of persons so if He will do these amazing things in our life then He can and will do it in yours too. If you don’t believe that is OK too. God addresses our unbelief in the Bible. I know there was a time in my life I wouldn’t have believed either. I am thankful that is in the past and I while I am not comfortable always with what is going on I am more open to seeing what is there for us if we believe.

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